Sunday, February 6, 2011

Being the Bride

Does being engaged automatically turn a woman into a bride? Or is being a bride a one-day - well, wedding day - one-time offer?

I'm not sure. 

I definitely feel like a bride whenever there are decisions to be made for our wedding. Whether or not I am the bride right now, I know for sure that I WILL be the bride come June, and want our wedding day to be perfect.

My life is very busy.

During the week, I am Miss Page, teaching 16 precious angels by day, and planning/marking/trying to relax by night.

But come Friday night, the bride in me comes out. I have a fairly large (but shrinking!) to do list that I scale several times daily and decide what needs to be done on the coming weekend. My personal life and all "free" time revolves completely around the wedding. 
If I go anywhere... it's to look for something for the wedding.
If I see friends or family... we talk about and/or make arrangements for the wedding.
If I make an appointment.... it's with a vendor for the wedding.
If I stay in... I am either looking for items for the wedding online, working on the guest list, or watching wedding shows with my Mom.
If I see Joel... well... we talk about the wedding!

I think you get the idea.

Wedding planning is fun and exciting, but I am also excited to no longer be the bride. I want to be a WIFE!

I want to introduce Joel as my husband. I want to come home to him in the evenings, and wake up with him in the mornings. I can't wait for the day when instead of planning our wedding, we are planning the rest of our lives together.

Honestly, it's hard to imagine this. I think the shift from bride to wife is going to be an interesting one.

Having been engaged for almost a year and a half, I am so thankful for the time that Joel and I have had together as an engaged couple. We've had time to prepare for the wedding and our new life, and grow as a couple and with God. With the wedding now less than 4 months away, I know that the time is going to fly, and before we know it we'll be married. This in-between time - somewhere between dating and marriage - has been wonderful. I wouldn't change it for anything. 

But our long engagement has given me a lot of time to settle in the role of "bride," and right now my life revolves almost completely around the wedding. I will need some time to re-adjust and embrace my new identity as a wife. 

I have to wonder though, what other roles does God have in mind for me? 

I have been a daughter, sister, student, teacher, fiancee... with wife and homeowner soon added to the list, what's next? Will I be a teacher forever, or is there another plan for my career path? Will I be a Mother? 

I really don't know, and I think this is one of the most exciting things about living in God's way. I'm not sure what the plan is for my life, but I have full confidence that I will always be taken care of. I trust the Lord with all of my heart. 

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