Friday, December 31, 2010

Life Changes

I am in a stage of life where my world is constantly changing, and I know that things are not going to stabilize any time soon. In the new year, I will be finishing off my first year of teaching while getting married and moving - with my husband - into our first home.

These are all good changes though; changes that I have both prayed about and worked for. 

On Tuesday morning, I was diagnosed with Raynaud's disease. This is a life change that was neither expected nor anticipated. Frankly it is not even welcome!

Technically this is not really a change because I have had it for a while. However, the actual diagnosis is a little surreal. 

Raynaud's is a condition where the blood vessels in your fingers and toes are overactive and can easily "spasm" when triggered by the cold. When I go outside in the cold, one or more of my fingers often goes completely white (and/or blue) because the blood supply has been cut off. I didn't really think it was that big of a deal until I saw a snippet of a Dr. Oz special about it, and then later had an "attack" around my Grandmother, who suffers from the same condition. You can google it... it's a little scary. 

As long as I keep myself warm enough, I shouldn't have any problems.

The problem with this diagnosis is that Raynaud's phenomenon is often a symptom associated with other conditions. It is only labelled "disease" when it occurs on its own.

I am being tested for scleroderma, lupus, and arthritis. 

I don't know what God's plan is for me, but he sure loves to throw in surprises! Although I am a little scared, I am still excited about the future, and can't wait to see what it holds. 

The LORD himself goes before you and will be with you; he will never leave you nor forsake you. Do not be afraid; do not be discouraged. 
Deuteronomy 31:8

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